morale has been plunging since we returned from taiwan. i dont think my oc is the only one at fault. across the battalion everyone is feeling jaded. worn out. and just not quite ready for the 1 last mission that would mark the end of chionging suas. i dont even want to imagine how disastrous it'd be if jan comes and we head into atec in this state. all the good work or rather hard work. since we're not actually that excellent as they describe us to be. would be gone. holy shittt. but seriously. even i dont feel like giving a damn about this last atec.

and i dont get why everyone is in a hurry to grow up. we'll get there when we get there. we're just gonna end up regretting it when we look back. after the novelty of being a grown up wears off and the effects of additional shit slaps us in the face.

*piak*

something like that.

i truly admire those that have the courage and determination to defy all odds to work for their dreams. its throwing everything away for that slim chance. and i hate that i do not have that.

this getting sad and depressing. not so christmas-ee.

2nd trip to taiwan in my short ns life. went to the roughly the same places. probably why i wasnt quite as hyped for the r&r as i was in sispec days. knowing what to expect really takes the excitement away. usually i like to look out the window on long bus rides. and usually i do that. but this time i just slept through most of the journey.

was caught between longing for the comforts of home and not wanting to go back to the same mundane lifestyle in singapore. im pretty sure if i had the few items i needed i could have put off going home for quite some time. didnt use to be like this.

at the moment life is pretty bleak. im not working towards anything but my ORD date. only thing i look forward to is that. can see myself being lost once i reach there. can see myself missing my army buddies. and army bunk life. not the training. just the times in bunk. and probably the sense of belonging. the same feeling bb gave me in sec sch.

honestly i dont know where im headed. only started thinking abt this after i entered ns. before that whenever i thought abt where my life is headed i just think about which school i shld work towards to. which unit i want to land my ass in in ns. but now i realise there's more to it than all that though i cant quite explain or put a finger to it.

arghhhh still feeling the nooooo i dont want to be back home feeling that you get when you return from a long trip.

i just read some of earlier posts and i realised i was so damn friggin corny last time.

nope im all grown up and less corny now. seriously!

i can tell nobody believes me but thats alright. i'll just go cry in one korner.

this one week block leave just before taiwan has switched me to ord mode. its gonna be so hard to go back to combat mode man. im done with ns. enough liao la. ORD PLS. I DONT WANT TO GO BACCKKKK. noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

civilians lead such wonderful lives.

and im starting to hate watching movies and reality shows. they paint the perfect picture. they put each of ur dreams into action just to give you a little glimmer of hope. a small sense that all that can actually be achieved. but we all know that most of us will just grow up to be another nondescript person. living a normal live. with our wildest dreams nvr fulfilled. and watching these shows just make it more painful becuase they are some lucky buggers out there who have actually living your dream. and these shows just tell you that its possible for draems to come true but just not for you.

mighty depressing post. no idea why. i used to be one of those people who would say hey its possible if you work hard enough. if you put your all to it. but i guess im just losing that kind of optimism.

which isnt good man. i'll find it back.

and hopefully that little optimism i just displayed with the above sentence doesnt disappear liek the rest of it did.

dang man. life has gotta be a little more interesting. so boreddd at home.

bah. lets see how long it takes for someone to realise there are still updates. hahahha probably never ah.

wa running 21 km is no joke man. first time i run until my legs went cold. like can feel a cool sensation at my thighs.

and now i know hitting the 9km mark at 40mins is too crazy a pace for 21km. hahahhaha. felt so good running at a crazy pace for a good 6km or so. then i died totally after that. ended up walking damn a lot. still a good experience though.

you should have just stayed where u were. coming back did neither of us any good.

i think its been almost a here since i posted here? just didnt quite have the time to update. and upon logging i realised i have a disturbing number of follwers that i dont know. lol. bet they're gonna spam stupid ads on my comments. hey doods. either pay me for that. or SCREW OFF

im actually a very nice person. pls dont be intidimated =D

read a few of previous posts. i really sound like a retard at times. bet i still do. but thats not the point.

life's beeen boring. monotonous. repetitive. and really could be better. why my unit does so much. i still dont understand. my thumb is getting smaller with each passing day. soon i'll really have 4 fingers only.

then i cant play pepsi cola 123. D=

its quite infuriating when u understand the need for somethign to be done. yet its still so painful to do it. isnt understanding supposed to take a lil bit of that pain away? at least i think it shld. damn u understanding. do your job.

im tired of army. really sick of it. not enough that i have to go outfield and do shit when i dont want to. i have to make ppl who are equally. if not more reluctant to do it with me. motivate them when im unmotivated. give them strength when im weak myself. and yet they question my every command.

the little perks i get to enjoy are sustaining me. but i rreally want to ORD NOWWW. respect the men who have been in this unit since the start of the mono. but 8 months of this shit hole is keeeling me. especially with the knowledge of how alot of ppl from my batch are having a nice time in their own units. while im sitting in asrama digging shellscrape and feeeding mosquitoes.

which brings me to the point.

im very surprised i havent gotten dengue or anything that's mozzies transmitted considering the number of bites i get each outfield. not that im hoping to get it.

i used to find it hard to talk abt non army related stuff with my frens. and now i find it almost impossible. its a sign

A SIGN

that i shld sign on.

idea.

and as epicmealtime says it. f***ing smart.

and bacon strips are really damn delicious. no wonder they love it so much.

ok bai bai.

sometimes i wish i was talented in something.

howdyy.

i dont know if anyone still checks this place for updates. but if you do. you're in luck. yayyy

aslc isnt quite as bad i imagined it to be. yeaa lots of outfield and range shit but still managable. life isnt that bad. bunks mates are pretty fun. commando pc is usually not around. so we can get away with slacker trainings. blah blah blah. but life is still very mundane. having a laptop helps alot though. laptops are really a morale booster and makes ns life better.

going taiwan for 3 weeks in 2 weeks time. people say its fun. but im not really looking forward to it. 7days field camp doesnt sound that fun to me. but 2 more weeks after the taiwan trip i'll be passing outttt. as a seargeant. finally. after getting this crappy posting while everyone else got nice posting im preparing myself for the worst possible posting. like guards or some shit. lets hope i dont end up there. they do crazy stuff.

sometimes i really dont know what im doing in ns. we give shit standards and they just let it go simply coz of time constraint or whatever other reason. i mean its nice for us. but i dont think its right. since seargents are gonna be teaching and leading people. if we're screwed up. we really dont have the right to teach or yell at people next time.

and it gets tiring to try. when saikang is allocated to us and nobody wants to dirty their hands. its tiring to always be one of the first few to say. hey lets just get it over and done with. while everyone stands where they are. wanting to siam and go slack. and when the usual people dont take the iniative. the saikang is left untouched and everyone gets a nice lecture and punishments like no nights out and all that. anndd then everyone starts to kp like. wa thats too much. then scold the OC for dealing such punishment. go back bunk and shout.

and guess what the few that always tries goes down with the ship anyway. not fair right. but i dont like just leave things the way they are when i know we are supposed to do them.

im tired of trying. when people dont reciprocate. maybe its the signal to stop trying. or maybe you're taken for granted. or maybe they dont see it at alll.

k enough with ns.

just returned keith;s guitar. now i have no guitar. D= . kind souls out there with a serviceable guitar. please lend it to me. thank you very much.

i realised i havent talked to alot of people for quite some time now. sorry doods but SAF is a weekened monster that eats weekends. you know like cookie monster. nom nom nom. so dont have much free time and alll. think i'll get more time after i pass outt. hopefully.

since i started ns people's been asking questions. and their questions are starting to get to me. i believe. but i cannot explain. i cannot tell why. im having more doubts than ever. its shaking.

"its shaking" sounded kinda weird there. but anywayyy. bai bai. please sms me to go out. im very lazy to organize =D.

wo hui lai le!

hahhaaa. next week is the last week of bslc. damn fast siol. 28km route march tml starts at 1530. hope for nice weather. think i'll drill a hole on the top of my helmet or something. helps ventilation.

its kinda sad now. from bmt to bslc. the same few people have been my bunk mates. now just when we're starting to really bond. we're gonna be seperated. D= awwwww. sian. then gotta make new friends again. thats unless we damn suay and all end up in aslc. same bunk again. really hope i end up in some nice vocation. with a camp thats near my house. and with people i know. hahhaha. that's the dream man.

4 months of ns gone. 1year 6 months to go. im quite used to this life. not that i like it. just used to it. any situation can be fun. or funny. as long as u're stuck with a bunch of people u can talk cock with. now after i get posted. i have to restart everything. find new people to talk cock. make new friends. and inevitably lose some of the friendships i've made.

sounds very exciting indeed.

not.

book in lohh.

1/4 of scs done. the past 2 weeks was just lessons lessons and more lessons. starting from next week schedule's gonna be more packed. more tiring stuff coming up.

inception was good. (y). sometimes i think im dreaming too. hahaha i should make a totem.

book outs for next 2 weeks will be on sat and monday. 2 looong weeks ahead.

this 2 weeks im burning my money like free. i draw money when i book out. and before the day ends. im left with just 5 bucks. and i cant really remember where all my money hsa gone. noooo. please dont take my money away~~.

i've been using ns as an excuse. to delay somethings i dont want to deal with. things that are hard to decide. hard to deal with. when in camp my mind is cleared of all these things. because i've other stuff to worry abt. but all this things are just gonna come back and haunt me sooner or later.

haiya. why cant everyday be saturday.

on the first week of scs my oc gave to me.

canteen breaks every night.

woooo. first week of scs was aweeesommeeee. 2million times more freedom than bmt. and because of that. all the discipline from bmt just disappeared. im quite sure we're gonna get screwed once the high key events start.

but for now. we can order macs/kfc/pizza or whatever thats orderable at night. if we have the time. hhahahhaha. we wouldnt even dare to dream abt that in tekong.

training will prolly be tougher. gonna run 3km almost every morning. but seriously. tougher trainings in exchange for less regimentation is totally worth it.

im still dreading book ins. even though life has gotten better. still dreading army life.

why cant everyday be saturday?

POP LO!!

and now. onto fresh helll. muahhahaha

i better not end up as a man. i might burn cmpb down if i do.

how sad. i was just beginning to like bmt life a little bit. and now im out of it.

and my hair was just beginning to grow to a not so short length. and they had to cut itt. on the weeek of my pop. on TUESDAY. now im back to botak one. i mean square one.

note to future recruits. bring EVERYTHING back on the week before pOP. i mean EVERYTHING. dont just open ur cupboard. see that its quite empty and say. hah. i think i can squeeze everything into my bag. and it'll still be quite light for my 24km route march.,

it wont be. my bag was hugeeee. like everyone else's. got even bigger with my helmet and lbv inside. thank goodness i didnt have to take public transport. i'll be fat. smelly. and everyone will pinch their nose and stare at me.

i cant remember how it feels like to have hair. cant remember how it feels like to rub my head and not feel the prickly feeling. cant remember how it feels like to sweep my fringe from my forehead.

oh how i miss you. my dear hair.

2 months. not a very long time. but enough to make me see things differently. enough to build back the mental strength that i lost since i went jc. enough to make me appreciate my parents more. and enough. to make me tell them that i do appreciate them.

i have this section mate. that signed on. his parents were getting a divorce and his mum didnt have enough money to pay for a new flat. his bro will not have enough money for uni either. so he signed on. for the money. to help his family out. he just threw 6 years of freedom away. for them.

just felt my own problems were so small after hearing that. i felt so sad for him. he told me he didnt mind army life. or not booking out. since he doesnt have a home to go to even if he did book out. made me very very grateful for everything i ahve.

and the thing is. i never heard him grumble abt his problem. he just put his best in whatever he did. to secure a spot in ocs. so he can sign on and help his family.

honestly if i were him. i dont know if i can do the same. or be as strong. he had all this personal problems outside of army. and still he doesnt complain. he just takes the bullshit life throws at him.

respect this guy man.

teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

last week of bmt. last book in to tekong. think i'll miss sitting on the ferry. its kinda fun.

10weeks of bmt isnt that long after all. at least it doesnt feel that long. hope i get into sispec. not man or ocs. then another 6 months of bmt upsize and i'll bee outttttttttttttt.

if i go back to bmt as a seargent. its gonna be damn slack man. or at least thats what i think.

really looking forward to block leave. havent played soccer since i entered army.

ughhhh. although this week's the last week. its also one of the most tiring week. the entire week is packed with physical activities. got rehearsal for the parade. bcct. soc. agr. then friday the 24km route march. sssiaanxxorrsxsxz

i think ns men should have more sleep. we expend so much energy during the day. and we sleep like 6 hours. sometimes slightly lesser. somedays i wake up with a dinosaur stomping around in my head. realllllly feels like crap. more sleep pls.

bbbooookk in.

need moar fooooood.

felt hungry for most of the time this week. kept having out rations. and they give realllly little food. enough to satiate your hunger. but not enough to make u full.

shooting is damn fun. guys going to ns. thats one thing to look forward to. its really quite shiok. but our company damn suay. for the night shoot. just before my turn. the whole range blacked out for 2 and a half hours.

so by the time we finished shooting and went back. we reached our bunks at abt 410am. slept at 430am. and woke up at 6am. WOOO shiok ah. had a power nap after breakfast. but really. it didnt help much. but thankfully we had nothing to do for the whole day. so we just zombied around. cleaned out rooms. and took naps here and there.

riggghttttt. this coming week is full of soc. and 16km route march! wooooo. gg

k book in liao. bye

im bacckkkk again.

this week my morale was at an all time low. i dont know why also. i just felt so drained and depressed. and i was getting really sick of being around people. just wanted time to be alone. by myself. really. you dont get any of that in army. anywhere u go there's people. even after lights out u still hear ur bunk mates talking/snoring/moaning/moving around on their bed/ or in some cases the music they listen to coz they switch the volume to like 100000.

then i went for my 12 km route march with my all time low morale and i almost died. it started around 2pm in the afternoon. you know how hot that is??? for the first 4 km. i almost died. like seriously on the brink of falling out. my brain was cooking in my helmet. the stupid vest i was wearing was trapping all the heat. it was the hottest i've ever ever ever ever felt in my entire life.

during our break our o.c came to scold us. and my morale went even lower. thankfully the next 8 km was as hot as the first 4. somehow i maanged to push through.

realllllllly thankful that i made it all the way through 12km.

tekong seriously needs to invest in clouds. like get a cloud making machine or something. there's always clouds around tekong. but not above.

and now i got a one day book out. i have a essay abt the defining moment in my ns life to write. but it feels really good to be alone in my room. just myself.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. thats how good i feel. hahahha

i hope i have a normal 5day week next week. havent had one. dont know how it feels like. dying to try. hahhaha.

and hey. all but one of my high key events are cleared. no more sleeping in out field or what. at least for the rest of bmt. (Y) YEAAAA. lots of physical training coming up next. (y)

btw. everyone says they lose weight after outfield events. and i gained 2 kg after field camp. hahahahha. but the little tummy i grew during the hols is goneee. and i can do like 7/8 pullups. WOOOOOOOoOOOOoOOoOooOoOoOOOoOOOooOOOooOOOooO

i think i deserve a reward from everyone that reads this. hahahhahaa

during the sit test(situational test. something used to assess recruits to see if they are suitable for command sch ). the assessor asked if given the choice. would i go for ocs. i said not sure. and im still not sure. i think i will die there. but i'll definetely learn more. experience more. and hey i'll get more money too. hahahaha. but do i wanna push myself thatt hard?? nvm. 1 more month to decide. not as if im already in alr.

i miss playing soccer. i havent talked to some people since i've entered army. i havent done some stuff since i entered army too. now that high key events are out of the way. lets hope i ahve less confienments. and more time to do all this stuff.

righty mighty. see you guys next book out.

its a time for patience. for strength. for growth. and for learning.

goal for this week. cut down on vulgarities. if i fail. no ice cream for myself when i book out. D=

my 2nd book out. and guess what guys. im done with half of bmt.

field camp really wasnt as bad as i imagined. it definetely could have been alot worse. im very grateful for the nice commanders that we have and very pissed with the people who dont know how to appreciate the niceness and try to do all sorts of stupid stuff.

hahahhah btw. i saw wild boar during camp. its friggin friggin huge. seriously if we killed it and ate it. can feed like 20 people. and my buddy fainted from heat exhaustion. i covered shit holes. etc etc. interesting experience. but i really prefer not to go through it again.

anyways. abt 1 more month to POP. im alive and well. healthy. did 6 pulllups today. could have done more though (y) and i've grown abit tougher. all of this i am very thankful for

nowadays its hard to talk abt anything besides army when im out. there's just nothign else to talk abt. cut off from everything. all i know is army. all i see is army. and all i do is army stuff. sianxors. lets hope this isn't the way it'll be for the rest of my ns life.

my english is getting lousy. tsk. k tired. bye

i just read my own post and i realised its full of angst. im just ranting abt the bad stuff in army. i realised i havent really gave thanks for the good stuff i got.

1. nice bunk mates. very nice to get along with. all nice kids. none of them are like guai lan or anything. thats VERY impt. i mean. 7 more weeks to go. nice bunk mates help make army more bearable.

2. for the 17 days i've been inside. seargents have been VERY nice to us. VERY. other company get 100+ push ups. we barely hit half of that. and since i've been sick for the better part of those 17 days. that is really a blessing. think i would have died if they were nasty everyday.

3. we get washing machines (y) hahahahah self explanatory.

this are the few i can think of for the moment. lazy to think. im gonna complain less. tank more. and grow. army is a time for growth and learning!

wa that sounds so mature. very unlike me. hahahahha see. i've grown alr.

i have one more thing to rant abt. and thats the tekong cough thing. if everyone gets it. and 240 people in the company starts coughing. then i think its a serious problem. how can we train when everyone is coughing. tsk. they seriously need to purify the water or seomthing. we shouldnt just think ah its ok. everyone gets it. so leave it be.

this should be the army theme song.


hahahahah play taht everytime we move. then the seargents will sing along.

DARE YOU TO MOVEE~~

how do you know if an army dude is serving in tekong. or some other part of singapore.

check if he's coughing.

i always thought the "tekong cough" thing was bullshit. still thought so on the first day. then on the second day i had mild cough. by the end of the first week. it felt like my lungs were gonna fly out everytime after i ran.

on top of that i had sorethroat and fever twice. eventually almost the whole company came down with the cough and sorethroat. we sat in the lt for some talk and there wasnt. i repaet. there WASNT a single second that nobody was coughing.

now im back on lovely singapore. i see traffic lights on the road once more. loving my 4 day break. damn sad for the other dudes who book out on fri. coz they only get 2 days.

GUYS 3 WEEKS DOWN. 7 WEEKS TO GOOOOOOO

and confinement next week again. D= blooody field campp. honestly im really quite scared for field camp.

nothing sucks more than being sick in camp. really. people who have yet to enter army. pray that u stay healthy. and dont get all this crap. running when u hvae a retarded cough is one of the most torturous things i've eveer done.

well i think everyone i've talkeed knows how i feel abt my bunk and inefficiency of army as a whole. so i'll skip that.

im kinda liking my botak head. its amazing cooling. takes very little maintenance. and doesnt get in ur face like how fringes do. however. even though i kinda like how it feels . i'd want to have a little more hair.

after my next book out.

which is. 2 WEEKS FROM BOOK INNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

half the bmt would be over!! damn fast.

BUT cannot bring biscuit. no strepsils also. at night hungry just eat grass or eat dust.

oh. and i learned a handy dandy new technique during this 17 days. and thats powering down ur brain. and going into semi auto mode. especially used when u're doing a monotonous and repetitive task like marching a long distance. ur body continues to move as it's supposed to. but ur brain goes somehwere else. it helped me get through lots of boring times.

i hope my finger stays obedient during field camp. and my mind doesnt power down at the wrong time. so i wont ever ever misfire and get myself confined.

AND. since tekong is screwed up. it doesnt have clouds. it only has when it rains. so instead of hoping for no sun. i hope theres wind. and rain. the weather is really. DAMNN HOT. and with long four. i get heat rashes. which is some burning sensationn on ur skin. it gets quite unbearable sometimes.

SOO

people who have not gone it. pray for good health. and stay away from all the stupid illnesses. all of the illnesses makes it a lot tougher to cope and adjust.

lim zui ho ah!

hello!!

this past week i've been spending more time out of the house than in it. and im friggggggginnn tired now. sleep deprived. but all for a good cause. and thats spending time with friends.

and i've been spenind alot alot alot alot of money eating alot alot alot alot alot of food.

in 2 more days my scalp is gonna say hi to the world for the 2nd time since i was born. yes just in case some of you were wondering. i've nvr been bald. BUT i've been on board before. ahhahhahhaha

im tuning my mind to prepare myself for the different stuff there. but really no amt of tuning will really help. so i shld just go there. die. and it'll get tuned. nice one.

and my army phone has no snake. NOOOOOOOOOOOoooOOoOOooOo. neither does it have bounce. NOOooOOOoOOOoOoOO damn it.

k updates on this blog will become a weekly issue now.
gooodbye ay ay.

the things you cant change.

its so easy to fall into the trap of mulling over what you cant change instead of trying to change what you can. so easy.

i found out that the saturday of the first week of my ns is labour day.

which meanss

NO CONFINEMENT! WOOOOOOO seriously. our batch of jc kids are lucky retards. feb intake had no confinement coz of cny. now april intake also no confinement. nice one la public holidays.

it made me dread the coming of next monday less by a teeny bit.

think there's a probelm when you dont have anything much to look forward to in the future. it's a problem right?

and new discovery. what do you get when u flip ftw over? wtf!! hahhahahahaha opposites both in spelling and meaning.

okok. goodbye.

number of days to ns is going down to single digit sooon. im a little scared. because my fitness isnt quite back yet. i just hope the weather decides to be a little more kind on me while im inside. and i hope i get a buddy i can get along with. nice people in my bunk. and maybe a seargent who doesnt have a screw loose in his head.

not asking for alot right? haahha hope there's decent food too. nothing sucks more than being dead tired and eating crappy food.

im actually looking forward to stuff like throwing grenades. or live firing. paintball gave me a glimspe of how it feels like to fire a gun. and damn it was fun coz i hit joel's head 3 times on the same spot and it swelled up later in the night. hahhaahaha

and maybe if i can. i'd like to try to . i dont know maybe fire a bazooka or like the cannon on the tank. hahahhahaha wa damn cool la.

those stationary machine guns would be cool tooo. always loved them in video games.

i wanna play paint ball again. the guy said that if we got 16 people we can get a 3 hour slot. prolly gonna be damn ex. but its damn fun. and 1 hr is too short alr.

pew pew pew.

where is the light that's supposed to shine brighter in the darkness?

its been a few months since she last had a face. now every time she pokes into my dreams i can nvr remember her face. its nvr the same. i wake up and she becomes faceless again.

when oh when is that face gonna appear?

i gotta feeeeling~ wooooooooo~~~

not that tonight's gonna be a good good night.

just a feeeeling. wooooooooo~~

feeeeeling's got more feeeeel if you put in extra Es.

im scared to mix with strangers. especially if we're not doing a common activity. or doing a common activity that requires lots of interaction. i become self conscious of my actions coz i dont want to look like an idiot. but ultimately i become too self conscious and look like an idiot anyway.

even if just ONE stranger mixes in a whole bunch of people i know. i get really uncomfortable. it kinda shuts me up. so next time you know when wen jie's talking too much nonsense just get a stranger to join.

NOT unless if the stranger is a guy similar to me. or is just as much an idiot as i am.

put me in an environment when i know nobody and i'll probably melt into a puddle of water.

im sure they have a term for this. sociophobia? is there such a thing?

i have no idea why i just typed all that. but it helped save me from typing a whole paragraph of bull crap that's swimming in my mind.

i want to learn how play harmonics on guitar. i tried it by myself and all i've made is noise.

righty mighty goodbye

NOTHING feels better than a warm and full tummy on a cold morning.

not even a cool and full tummy beats it.

i just had my warm breakfast the other day then i sat down on the sofa with my warm and full tummy. and it felt so great i didnt wanna get up.

on the other hand. nothing feels worse than having a double cramp. not menstrual. but cramp on both of my legs. waaa worse cramp in my life siol.

lolol fun bun.

hello world.

havent updated for quite some time. think i shld copy that and paste that on every post i posted during hols.

anyway. in case u're wondering. i didnt get fried. and im content with what i got. considering the fact that i was actually expecting worse.

still not quite sure what i wanna do. have a few courses in mind. environmental engineering and material science engineering. but dont know if i shld take engineering or not. no one seems to be applying for engineering.

how brown cow? should i?

engineers to be/engineers/engineereds ( retired engineers ) pls tag. wanna know moree abt engineering from someone whos actually studying. rather than the dudes at the open house who can only offer very vague answers.

if u had just one chance to change one aspect of yourself. whatever aspect. like maybe the amt of nose hair u have. or the colour of ur eyes. what would u choose?

maybe i'll choose to stop imagining stupid things. like my billion dollar prostitute enterprise that will be based in the jungles of malaysia. hahahaha old joke. btw nat. u're still the main star for that.

to the random people from all the across the world reading this. i've no idea how oyu actually found this blog. but thanks for reading. hahahha

i think i kinda erased myself from everyone's radar for this hols. looking back i've just been spending alot of time alone. doing things that i always said i'd do but nvr got abt doing. and i must say it feels satisfying. the loner in me craved this peroid of solitude. not that i dont get enough usually. but sometimes i need a little more.

for some weeks i go out like maybe twice or just once a week. but still i dont feel bored. or whatever some people feel when they dont go out enough.

im sure i will get bored soon though. when even the loner in me gets sick of being with myself.

fryday. i might get fried. i still dont have a clue of what im going to do for uni.

well if i get fried it kinda makes it easier to decide since i wont get many options.

but still hope i dont get fried.

or i could just chase a dream. perhaps i might get somewhere. or screw myself up for good.

sadly the latter sounds alot more likely to happen than anyhting else.

and i've been wondering why my fire for bb died. why? was i just in for the fun only? or maybe coz most of the other doods are not committing too. or maybe i grew tired of it? anddd nope i've still no idea why.

there were 3 keys made for one lock. one's stored away. used sparingly. one's away. to be back someday. and one broke.

i'd like to fix that last key. but no one's there to use it anymore.

broken key for sale~~.

dont watch the vid. it involves a bodyless head of a female singing. just listen to the audio.

talked to 2 dudes who just went in army in feb. its march today. less than 2 monnthhhshsssss leftttttttt.

just found out my blog has 1 follower. wow. and some dude from mexico i think. the link on his profile goes to some mexican blog. o.O amazing ah. random people from everywhere reads this.

anyway. cny's gooooood. ate alot. alot alot. somehow cny this years feels abit different. it has a lil bit more of the cny atmosphere. and i like how the streets are quiet during cny. hardly any cars. and everywhere is quiet and peaceful. not like the usual weekdays where all i hear at home is the traffic. and every few minutes the loud rumbling from the mrt.

we shld get a full 15 day holiday for cny. hahaha. 15 days of peace.

maybe when i grow old i'll just go to some country side in some random country and live there. well the place must have a teevee with cable though. need to watch soccer.

will there still be countrysides left by then? think by the time i grow old. everywhere will be cities. or l4d would have happened.

being old is very far awaayyyyyyyyy. though not so for my body. im 18 but my body feels like 50+.

the rainbow now only has 3 colours. far from complete. D=.

cny= pack room. eat eat eat. take ang bao.

and usually when u pack your room. you dig up some interesting stuff that u havent seen for quite some time. and the stuff u dig up usually falls into 3 main categories. 1. keep. 2 . throw. and the third is right in the middle of the first 2. u're just not quite sure of what to do with them.

and so. you chuck them back into where you took them from. usually.

for me.

coz i just want to postpone the decision making. like. aiya. nvm put there first. deal with it when i've got time.

and the next time i see it will be the next cny. and the cycle repeats itself. just today i dug up some stuff from 5 or 6 years ago. and i shoved them all back into where they came.

see you again next year =D

but i dug out a chunk of sec4 stuff that i kept. in case anyone wanted them. and threw them all away. since hte syllabus has changed and i really dont think anyone will want my books that are peeling like peel fresh. LOL. and replaced them with the 40odd books of new comics that i just got. k not new. second hand.

cupboards look alot more awesome when they're filled with stuff you like. rather then junk that u dont know what to do with. and dont want to see.

anyways. happy cny in advance.

andddd. ba gua is getting very oily. to the point that the ba gua drips oil when i pick them up.

i just realised that other than the anonymous dude that posts ads on my blog. there's another anonymous dood that actually comments proper stuff. becoz usualyl i just skip over comments made by anonymous ppl. so i didnt actually notice it till like a few days ago.

hello anonymous dood. nice to meet you. would be nicer if i actually knew who you are.

anyways.

coz my admin job is at this survey company. that well. does surveys. the particular survey/project that im working on is like a survey to tourists. so i get to see quite interesting stuff like what people from other countries think abt singapore.

interesting stuff they like no. 1

Prostitutes in hotel

nice.

interesting stuff they like no.2

WEATHER.

quite a few of them wrote weather. bet they came during the 5 days out of the 365 days where singapore is actually nice. cool. and not warm and humid.

or they live in even hotter places like australia.

i want faster fingers.

popped by keith's house a few days ago. returned him his nice acoustic guit. and borrowed yet another guit from him. and he showed me this awesome vid. that u see above. hahha if only i can play half as well. and loook at the capo he's using. its a HALF capo.

who sells half a capo? i cant even learn the song even if i want to. coz i dont have a HALF capo. hahaa. cool pool dude. go look at his drifting vid also. this was posted like 4 years ago and i only just saw it. sighhh.

HELP ME FIND OUT WHERE HE LIVES. i'll go learn from him. and get a half capo. haha

half capo. sounds fun tos ay.

half capo

half capo.

read it out loud

half capo.

its fun to say it!


half capo.

FUUUUrst day of work.

pretty boring. all i was touching was the mouse and the number pad. its just keying in numbers non stop.

for like 9hours. i was actually assigned to do some stuff at like 1030. for the WHOLE day. i finished it before lunch. by the time i knocked off i finished like 3 times of the original assigned workload.

and tml im told to report later for work. i assume its coz i did some of tml's work today.i dont know if thats good or bad. while i'd like to work a lil less. coz its damn boring. i also want more money. but if i do more work any slower. i risk falling aslp.

i hope they allow me to use mp3.

ah wells. 1 day down. abt 4 weeks to go. hahahhah but after that i'll have a good bit of money to spend.

and my office is really really really quiet. i see the offices in drama. movies. or whatever. people are always talking to each other and stuff like that. but there's nothing like that in my office. nothing at all. SILENCE for 9 housr. the lady mentoring me. i didnt even see her leave office for lunch. and she was still working after i knocked off. imba robots.

the people. especially the males look so stern. when they look at me they just stare at me. no smile. no nothing. just a hard stare. before looking away.

ladies are a lil nicer. they smile and say hello.

tsk. ah well wan an